Some days I feel on top of the world and am full of hope. Other days I feel lost, as if I'm stuck in limbo with the world swirling all around me. Today has been one of those days.
I know Satan is attacking the family through the fathers with pornography. Fathers, then wives, then the children. The domino affect is hideous and so damaging.
When I am feeling this way, I am not completely present with my children. I sometimes hear and see them but nothing registers because I am so preoccupied with the shattering effects the pornography is having on my relationship with my husband.
Fortunately I have moved beyond comparing myself with the women my husband is looking at. It took a very long time for me to get to that place, a very long time. It's our relationship I'm grieving. Where is it exactly? Where do I fit in? Where do I belong? What do I do?
With the Lord's help I am moving through this and stepping into the light of faith and hope. He is healing me. Instead of wondering 'Why me?' I try to focus on what I can learn from this and what type of woman I can become.
Today was a hard day...
Noelle
Noelle
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