I can still remember the day I discovered my husband had a problem, the day I accidentally discovered a stash of photos my husband had hidden on our computer. As we sat side by side trying to figure some things out, he on one computer and I on another one adjacent to his, with the click of the mouse picture after picture appeared on my screen.
After gasping, I quickly exited out of that page and searched my husband's face for an answer. The expression on his face said it all, they were his photos. I was shocked, horrified, and hurt. He said he was saving them for me so I could see the kinds of sexy poses he liked. I said they're not for me, they're for you. He exclaimed he couldn't go the rest of his life without looking at some skin and wanted to have a private place where he could see them. He got angry and blamed me. I wanted to shrivel up and die.
This revelation came out of nowhere. I felt as if I had been hit by a truck.
We had always enjoyed a wonderful intimate, physical relationship and even commented to one another how lucky we felt to have such a relationship, as we had heard of many other couples who were lacking in this area.
That day began the journey I am currently on: Stepping into the Light. My husband is on a journey as well, yet his journey is taking him elsewhere. I have hope our two paths will connect once again and we will be stronger, together. In the meantime, I am searching for and discovering answers to help and comfort me.
I look forward to sharing my experiences and discoveries with you in the hope that, in the very least, you will know you are not alone, and that there is peace awaiting you.
Noelle
After gasping, I quickly exited out of that page and searched my husband's face for an answer. The expression on his face said it all, they were his photos. I was shocked, horrified, and hurt. He said he was saving them for me so I could see the kinds of sexy poses he liked. I said they're not for me, they're for you. He exclaimed he couldn't go the rest of his life without looking at some skin and wanted to have a private place where he could see them. He got angry and blamed me. I wanted to shrivel up and die.
This revelation came out of nowhere. I felt as if I had been hit by a truck.
We had always enjoyed a wonderful intimate, physical relationship and even commented to one another how lucky we felt to have such a relationship, as we had heard of many other couples who were lacking in this area.
That day began the journey I am currently on: Stepping into the Light. My husband is on a journey as well, yet his journey is taking him elsewhere. I have hope our two paths will connect once again and we will be stronger, together. In the meantime, I am searching for and discovering answers to help and comfort me.
I look forward to sharing my experiences and discoveries with you in the hope that, in the very least, you will know you are not alone, and that there is peace awaiting you.
Noelle
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